So, first of all thank you to each and everyone of you who has emailed, left a comment, messaged me on Facebook or called. Your support means so much. I am feeling every emotion in the book these days and your kind words ground me.
I love hearing of stories of other 'after-thought' babies or woman who find themselves pregnant at an 'old age'! They are encouraging.
I am still in shock....really. Processing this major life change is taking me a lot longer than I would have ever thought. Some days I'm in denial, some days I think I can do this and others....well they are dark.
We found out I was pregnant on Jan 31st. One of my first thoughts was our pre-planned October trip to Disneyland with the boys. We had been planning this for at least four years and it gutted me to think that it couldn't happen now. So Keith and I quickly called our offices and worked on getting some immediate holidays so we could leave in February instead. It turned out well in the fact that Nate was still nine and qualified for lower prices on everything. Once a child is ten they are up there with the adults prices at parks, restaurants and all that.
We did have a good time and I did my best to put on a brave face but I was awfully queasy the entire trip. There was one day I could not do any rides at all. But mostly I just went on them and then took lots of deep breaths of fresh air! I think the cool weather helped....it was refreshing and if you've ever been in this predicament you know that fresh cool air is wonderful when you are feeling 'green'.
We are due October 5th if all goes as planned. I do realize that anything could happen....I am 'older' now so the chance of miscarriage does rise a bit. I have been feeling quite queasy and am so hoping I feel better soon. I have a feeling I will feel a lot better about this entire situation when I feel good again.
There you have it....the story....the drama.....the 'reality' show that is MY LIFE!